It seems that lately I have been censoring myself here. I have things I want to say. Things that are dying to get out, yet I hold back. I’m unsure if it’s my story to share. If I will offend or hurt those I care about by venting and getting these things out.
And so I sit and stare at the blank screen.
I type and type and type. Only to hit the back key repeatedly.
Once published, it’s out there forever. Surfing the internet, popping up in God knows whose computer.
I try my hardest not to write something that I would not say to someone’s face. I figure that’s a good rule of thumb. So there are times, like today, when I bite my tongue and fall silent.
I know my thoughts are true.
I know that given the right circumstances I would say them to this person’s face, but I’m not sure that I should. More accurately, I’m not sure that I can say them and still remain in their lives. Will they hate me for voicing my true opinion when I have held back trying to be supportive?
In the end, I think I’m going to need some advice and in that I’ll come to you. The situation involves too many innocents to not become more involved.